Runners Up

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Originally uploaded by wootang71

Ok, what i meant with the last post about not ever liking anyone so much that i'd change my life is rooted in my observation that everything is replaceable. cold to say, but it's true. there isn't anything or anyone so valuable, unique, or important that they cannot be replaced. Look at presumably one of the most important people in the world: the president of the USA. the president is in leadership of the most overall powerful country in the world. that person should be considered important, right? well guess what, that person is replaceable. we have a vp next in line. and another person behind the vp. in my experience, i may like someone so much that i can't think of anyone else. but when that person's gone, eventually so are the feelings. and then someone else fills that spot. happens to me, happens to everyone else. if it happens once, then that's something. if it happens over and over, that's a pattern. and i see a pattern of replaceability. i can say that i've loved a girl before. but i can't say that i've ever loved a girl so much that i'd change my life, stop traveling, and maybe even stop surfing or snowboarding (painful just to think of). material gets built and broken. people come and go. economies rise and fall. the sun will come up tomorrow. probably like most people, i don't like the idea of being replaced. if i can't fulfill someone's need, they'll find someone else who can. i like attention just like the next person. but if this girl isn't giving me the attention i need, i'm gonna find one that will. which brings me full circle (in my coffee-fueled head): how can we have confidence when we know we're expendable?

for the sake of not sounding like a lump of coal, i do understand that everyone's different. that's what i like about people. my friends are my friends, and i would do a lot for them. but i know that if one day i'm not around (happens a lot), it's not like their lives are over. they'll find another friend to hang out with. 'cause i'm replaceable, too.

the piz has been doing me well lately with the lucksmiths, santogold, belle & sebastian, and even the newest rogue wave album.

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Just got back from wedding #3. That's a lot of weddings for me. It was a whirlwind week. Cruising from San Diego to Half Moon Bay. Taking down some sangria with Wayne at Cha Cha Cha. Getting stuck in traffic and missing buses. Rolling on Bart and rolling into the wedding group smelling like the Mission. Hanging out with Job. Haven't seen her in 9 years. She goes by Elisabeth now, no more Liz. Forgot that she rented my Mom's place sophomore year. Job is how i know Sara, the bride. I met Pam through Sara. Pam introduced Sara and Todd, the groom. Then Pam married Sara and Todd. To each other, i mean. 3 way marriages aren't legal even in California. Crashed in Bernal, then rocketed to Truckee, but not without stopping for a paella burrito with Csontos in Davis. Visited dealers. Truckee was work, packing boxes, shipping boards, and playing boom blox with joe and liz. 16 hours after arriving, i'm out to South Lake, meeting in Sac which i missed, then Mountain View. Had a couple scotches with Dewey and crashed in Monterey. Now I'm back in San Diego, and the waves have gone flat.

At least weddings are fun. Polaroids rule. Open bar always helps. Open bar + Jameson + Wootang = whiskey fingers and no memory. Maybe I'm just thinking out loud, but I'm starting to think that there might not be anyone i like so much that i'll change my life. Don't get me wrong, I like attention just like anyone else. But I realize it's not specific to anyone. I definitely understand having love for someone. But just because I love a girl doesn't mean i have to marry her. Or start a life with her. Or be with her every second of every day forever. That's just not me. I'm open to the possibility that I may by chance meet a person that changes my mind. But i'm not holding my breath. Again, just thinking out loud. Got some of The Blow, the Lucksmiths, and Erasure on the pizzle mix.